sometimes its really difficult to know what is real and what is not. sometimes it might be a lie that is good for u. but i dont think anyone will like that. most of the times even very clase friends will become distant when the surrounding environment change. when someone new comes along. and thats basically nothing much we can do to go back to the past. u can just bare with the new situation and try to adapt to it. although its really difficult. the gradual change of someone initially very close to u may cause u to go into a kind of depression. not very serious but very hurtful. i feel it. deep in my heart.
anyway. other than the above. updates abt these few days are. i failed ALL subjects except gp for mid year. which is the reverse situation. i normally fail gp. yes i know i should start studying now. cannot delay anymore. but my heart is not on that. no motivation at all.