我努力的扬着脸孔..试着让眼泪不往下流..别往下流..
yes i received the nus rejection letter. i duno y but i just feel so discouraged..like y nowhere want me? the feeling is like being abandoned..the world is unfair..some people just have that luck and that fate that they dont need to worry abt this kind of things even if they dint get good results too..just like ck said, nationality really matters..but for my case, im sporean alr..so it shld not apply..sally says that i shld go n appeal for ntu..and maybe i can get in cos ppl do get a place in there after even 5 appeals..i hope monash reply me soon for my transfer request so me n my family can be more decided abt going to aus..there's not much time for me to wait..on another side..i cant bear to leave..my mummy..her eyes is watery even talking abt it..each time..and me..i see her cry..i will automatically cry as well...oh dear...if i know all this is going to happen...i will be so willing sacrificing more time for studies..its all my fault after all if not we wont have to go thru this so difficult decision..

took leave today actually for Basic Theory Test(BTT) in the end the test only took me 20mins. i passed! i know its easy but considering the fact that i only read thru the book once and did 50 qns in 20mins, i think its really too easy. haha. but got a very angry incident before that, there's shuttle bus to BBDC, but but but private students are not allowed to take!! the huge bus only got 1 person on it and the driver dont allow me to board the bus! ARGH.

before that, i headed to school, yea JJC, to take my A level cert. the whole document which is called the School Graduation Certificate, i think its quite nice in the sense that it looks prestigious. haha.


and not to forget, i ate the stingray!! yes i missed that most. and its still as nice! tho the size really did strink. but still delicious! haha. sitting in the canteen alone eating is my first time..yea sat at a place where i can see the field bball court..remembering those past times..haha. and oh this very coincident thing, firstly i saw suying still working at the icecream stall and its her last day. then when i walk out i saw yueying! the JJ-Ameron people. haha its so qiao.

other than that still saw alot fo familiar faces today.

anyway, smu and ntu rejected me. so yea i think the nus one will come soon.



this is wat i do when work is really boring..draw using paint-the only entertainment in Ameron's com.

stressed.
going aus also stressed.
dont go waiting for letter here also stressed.
argh.
received this mail from monash uni and wat? i will be in the Berwick campus? i just took some efforts(its not that easy u know) to check out where and how far is the place from everywhere else, and yes the conclusion is its FAR.
and wat now? shld i wait longer? write to Manash admin request for transfer to Clayton? apply for monash college instead?
anw, the new south wales asia in singapore closed down due to lack of students. how sad.

there's was a issue regarding me at office this morning. but basically it has nothing much to do with me also cos im not the one at fault. early in the morning manager called me in to talk. it goes "im very curious u know? so now u are still only doing winnie's things, last night i accidentally saw ur folder, u even help her do her backlog? this thing is very serious backlog is her own things and she should not ask anyone to help!" yes his tone is very furious right and i thought its my fault at an instant, then he said " dont worry this is not ur fault. i just wanna tell u that DO NOT do anything she ask u to do from now on." after that he ask another 2 ladies with heavier work load to come in. u know saying those things that supervisor winnie shldnt know, asked winnie to come in after that, tell her straight in her face that she cannot ask me do things from now on. yes. im relieved. cos im not the bad guy in the end even though i did tell manager that winnie is very slow.

ok this bad news, my dad's car just had an accident. the front is badly damaged. oh no!! luckily he's not injured.

Your Birthdate: June 15

For you, love is a natural progression from friendship. You are almost always friends first.In love, you are loyal, steady, and honest. You are not a cheater or even much of a flirt. You are likely to stay friends with your ex... and open to rekindling something in the future. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 6 You are most compatible with people born on the 6th, 15th, and 24th of the month.

i'll have my heart broken SIX times???? but there's non till now means its tough years ahead man...

happy birthday to ZX!!! (:

happy mothers' day!!

this is good news to some and bad news to some..especially my mum..i got accept by monash!! its not that good a sch....but nevertheless its top 40 in the world! im happy, of cos...the happiness when i see this email in my inbox, i cant describe. like its my first offer letter from a uni and my grades dint really meet the requirements. but this comes the thing, dilemma.

wenta catch a movie named EaGLES vs SHArK with sally last night. one of them shown in New Zealand Movie festival which is only avaliable at GV great world. sound nice huh? no absolutely not. all i can say is the film is LaME. the male lead is UglY. perhaps there's some literature stuffs inside that we dint understand.

hearing news of people getting letters each day makes me more depressed, losing more hope. of course people tells me that there's still chances and everything, but u know, there's many people waiting for that slim chance as well. i'll always sink into deep thoughts before i sleep every night, automatically, it lasts for at least an hour before i can fall aslp, and some are repeated each night. about people around me what they did what they say what happened to them and which affects me the most. yes im the type of person that is very easily influenced,by actions and words from those people that i care of course. i always wonder will i be able to make the right choice at a certain crucial moment in my life since im emotional. and now there's a WHY in my mind which i sort of know the answer but i dont want THAT to be my answer.