my nick is for u.
but u wont ever realise.
wood.
stone.
u wont ever read my blog cos u dont read blogs.
u wont ever know wat i feels.
u wont ever ask anything cos u r a piece of wood.
i shall not do anything too.
lets wait together.

today i ponned dance..again. lols. went to watch movie. watched red candy in the end cos nothing else is appealing. waited so long for it to start n for luxin. we went to do stupid things again like take 179 for around...haha. the movie was...scary..but i kept laughing! weird huh...baozi timid lor cover eyes..luxin like wood like tt no reaction....me ah..hmm...helen wanted to watch tt movie very much de..but nv call her. feels bad.
anw today we nv take TCA3 again cos many ppl absent. ppl like zx to slpy to wake up...haha.
hhmmm..there's a qn i've been pondering on this few days...n still haven get an answer yet. i think i know my feeling liao but...haiz. duno wat to do la. i need to get an ans out of my head wif no regrets. how?!!?

i failed a test again.
FAILED MATHS!!
FAILED PHYSICS!!
FAILED ECONS!!
WOW!!!
wat more can i fail??!?! i've already failed all the things i am capable of failing...wat if my life is gonna be a failure too??!?!?
its gonna be a long day tml...common test coming...i seriously duno wat to do to improve la...i studied for those tests but still fail...maybe i just cant be hardworking in the efficient way ba...relied on my xiaocongming gor the pass 10 yrs n now it haf no use le...arghhhh...STUDY!!!

it was a long day in sch today buy fortunately it turn out to pass very fast.
was trying to delete files cos my hard disk is too full. then saw those msn logs i saved. our stories once again flashed through my mind scene by scene. hao jiu mei you ni de xiao xi le. it was proven tt we got telepathy.i can really sense tt something had happened to him at the moment. he nv online for a very very long time le. i msg him oso nv reply. i just feel worried la as he is still the only guy tt i haf loved b4. hope he is fine.
singlehood really rox bah.i can go anywhere wif anyone at anytime. haha. tts the only good thing anywayz...

hApPy BiRtHdAy YvoNnE!!
finished reading lang de you huo first book!! yeah!!
today went town wif zx yvonne xiuling n helen. von was later cos she went to meet her parents. so we 4 shopped for her pressie...but we kept losing our focus n xiuling was the most focused..lol kept reminding us. n zx. looks at her reflection wherever possible..haha. ai mei sia.
hmm i bought a bag..quite big. they say its nicer den the previous one i wanted to buy..so i bought this instead. the previous was white wif the letter Z.its nice too. we bought a bracelet for yvonne..gal gal de. very cute. n necklace wif the letter V. mine is Z. zx is X n helen is H. den zx kept telling yvonne tt her pressie is she choose one..haha. we oso bought button earrings! haha. gonna wear the 'button' n necklace tml. hehe. quite happy la today. finally yvonne came! we took neoprints..in 2 different shops. yvonne today was really angry wif the printshop ppl sia...first time she show her bu man...good our training is good!she got improvement leh. haha.

woke up early today. cos need to go ICA apply for citizenship. sian. i pan guo leh...nv do anything basically they onli interviewed my dad..me jus gai shou yin. so wuliao. after tt went to bugis to eat. ate kimchi noodles. it was damn spicy la my teeth turned numb after tt. woo.
went back to sch take shaf's costume n my shoe. saw luxin n chivi in sch.haha. after tt came home. practice piano for like 15 mins onli bah. so slack. went for piano lesson. there was like 7 to 8 guys at the bus stop...i feel that they were looking at me but couldnt hear wat they say cos i listening mp3. went on bus den one of them sat beside me when there was like so many empty seats! crazy..den his frens was liek giving him tt kind of look. lucky i alight b4 the interchange..no mroe this kind of bus incidents plz! anw today piano lesson she onli teach me some theory stuff cos i taking exam mah. den nv play piano. abit the waste time n money la. taking grade 5 theory in oct i think. sian need to memorise lotsa things. went to popular bought a econs mcq book. i feel that my econs is really toooooooooo lousy le. need to prac mcq to understand those concepts. hope it helps.
feels very much like going out to play for a few days den get back to work. but its like totalli no time to do other things. think need to wait till sep holiday den can go play le :/
lang de you huo is really really nice! love it! :D

went for dance today after skipping 2 practices.haha.its quite fun except the fact tt we had to use the stage..its damn warm..we're sweating like hell. we got 10 mins break after warming up so i went to play badminton wif chivi they all. haha yeah long itme nv play liao...nex time mus play longer...dance was fun today over all tho onli 7 ppl came.
during lunch break me n yvonne was like trying to sell those animal towels..but too bad..no one wants to buy..a bit the pai seh la walking all around. it was quite a slacking day...liu lao shi's lesson is getting more fun day by day...we were playing around wif songs all day long..she rox!
haiz..econs...i really really tried to do le..but still duno how to do...how can i improve? do i just dun haf the econs mind? so nex time i can take business course in UNI? omg...my dream course..NUS business administration!! i wan get in!!

kinda no mood now..i know its bcoz of tt la..but there's nothing can be done other den continuing the current state.

wo xiang ku dan shi ku bu chu lai.

hao xiang ni is really a nice song:)

wo xi huan ni
jiao wo de ming zi
yi fu ruo wu qi shi de
que you xiang gong kai de mi mi

hao xiang ni
bu ting zhi
hao xiang ni
wo ai ni
xie zai shou xin
ni xiao rong ni chu peng
yi ran rang wo xin dong...

gonna do written report later le...so tired..my eye pain=\

im somewat feeling depressed n moodless rite now. y is jc so stressful? can i make it through? its jj..wat if im in other jc..am i like dead oredi? how can i catch up wif my work? i need motivation..where can i get it? from who? oh gosh..wat a jc life. altho i dun regret choosing a jc..but..im afraid..of i cant take it..i told myself to study..but just lack the little motivation i need..i could get from nowhere...

had chinese listening today..almost fall aslp..its boring. i kept yawning..we waited for more than half an hr lor..wat is this..worst den o lvl tt time.
after tt went to find mum at her workplace..took bus wif baozi..after tt we went sweetalk bought mango iceblended. its damn sweet la. we walked to NTU there which is like quite far..see stupid pond..ok there's alot of laughter..cos of stupid things. i think everytime me n him together oso do stupid things de lor..haha. after tt 5 pm! saw his mum n brother on the way back..so....yar...

anw my mum rox! she is so ke ai^^ MUM I LOVE U LOADS!!! muack muack*

just came back from a long walk. we went to eat mac den went to reservoir to feed fish! wow those fishes 'fly' to eat the bread...2 packets of bread like gone in 10 mins?! those tortises..omg they r so slow! the bread is jus infront of them lo den they took like yrs to get one bite. in the end all is eaten up by those fishes. there's like thousands n millions of fishes lo. bread diappears within seconds! tortises needs to train up for aiming skills n speed in order to survive!

anw while walking along the reservoir..lots of memories came back..tt was the first time we walked in the rain..haha. after tt jus cant stop thinking..somemore i started to sing all those songs...i rmb on tt black fri..his nick was 'hao xiang hao hao ai ni zhe yi ju hua zhi neng chang cheng mi mi. wang xiang chuang wai de yu fang fu chu peng ni ai guo de hen ji. hao xiang hao hao ai ni que mei you quan li zai ba ni bao jin. cong jin yi hou zhi yao ni neng kuai le. jiu bie guan wo xiang ni.' wow. haha. den tt nite tt song jus cant get away from my mind..den i teared abit lo. nvm its all over. anw i dun love him anymore. its jus those memories.

jus went cycling. haha think i cycled at around 20km/h. lol. dad onli ran 2km lor den even reach home later den me. anyway its to relief stress la. singing while cycling..woo!
ytd cut my hair after piano. its really much lighter now..but i think its not v nice la..the fringe. duno how shld i comb it.

wei shen me wo hai shi bu neng wan quan ba ta wang le. wo xi huan de na xie ge hai shi yi yang.
wo ai ni.
never be replaced.
bao zhe ni ku.
wo de cuo.
wo zhi dao ni hen nan guo.
yi shi de mei hao.
wo de zui ai.
qi li xiang.
tong hua.
yong qi.
i like them dun bcos they are popular. all of them has got special meanings to me. but now it onli makes me think of things i dun wan to think of! all my memories. altho is a failure. we were once sweet n loving.
wo dui bu qi ni.
xian zai. wo men zhi jian bu dan bu cun zai ai qing. lian you qing ye shui zhe xiao shi le. sui ran zi you. dan zhe ye bing bu jian de jiu hui rang wo kai xin. you shi hou lian yi ge ke ji yi kao de jian bang dou mei you. gan dao shi luo de shi hou mei you ren de jian bang neng rang wo kao zhe ku. ji ran zhe yang..wo jue ding yi hou bu zai bie ren mian qian xian lou wo cui ruo de yi mian le:) yi ge ren jiu yi ding yao jian qiang dao di...

actually today im quite disappointed wif sth..i was waiting n waiting but it din come..nvm its ok..i shall not think too much.. 我不可以喜欢你!因为我害怕会失去我们之间的友情.但是我觉得对你的感觉越来越强烈了,怎么办?!?!

jus came backk home from..ermss..not dance haha i ponned today! yeah! bucked-up wif laychoo.
was busying studying phy tts y nv blog...

wed.
went to sch early to prac oral..in the end..like onli talked craps bah..haha. had chinese oral after sch. was quite nervous..all bcos of the aircon. think i did quite ok bah..but forget to look at the other tr :P den went down had some discussion abt the oral wif them..wanted to run de..budden when we walked to the track there..saw so many ppl PC..den we wear uniform run very weird la...so nv run lo. den went home wif isaac lo. saw helen at the bus stop. anw think tt his smile is quite cute.haha. supposed to study phy de lo den i slp till 8pm! im so arghhh! unproductiveeee leh. haiz. den later wanted to slp later de lo den 1am cant tahan liao. den supposed to call baozi wake up study oso nv haha.

thu.
had a day of long lessons. wanted to zao after econs lec de...den we went back again. onli helen went home. after tt 4pm went home lo..so stress study phy..its like no one online lor..omg. damn stressed!!

today.supposed to meet zx go sch early study de. but after i came back from the washroom saw her msg say she dun wan go sch liao.sianz.den i wake up so early lor....haha nvm den. den went down at 625..the bus came at 645! so suay..reach sch onli at 720..took 1 hr to reach sch lo.phy think still cant pass la. im so shi bai. was very down after the test. went running. haha. haiz got back my progress report. its really not v nice. was caught by ms toh for talking during GP for twice lo..but both time is not me who initiated the conversation! hehe after tt ate omelette for lunch! it was nice. den actually wanted class outing de lo..in the end..they went home slp. so me n baozi onli..wanted to go orchard de..den when we pass science centre..aiya..the story shall not continue. den after tt went clementi for movie actually but its at 5. soooooooo...we met luxin n abalone at cck. play tabletennis. it was raining..we need to go luxin hse get racket..so far lo. den onli went play at 530. the sportshall is again so far..they were teaching me how to kai qiu..my tabletennis really cant make it la.haha. baozi oso. weak. after tt walked a long long long way to cck mrt. sooo far...

todays econs test was a doom for everyone. not onli me ba. my progress report is very ugly too. wow how great. jc is totally stressful. onli tt one word to describe wat im feeling now. i did so badly for like everything. highest is onli a C. real great rite? haha.
went for yoga today..it was quite fun..me n yvonne held our little fingers together n was noticed by the instructor..lol. after tt went for dance. tr was bad mood cos our led dancers serene n serena wasnt there. so we all were damn quite during dance. rare case. without nana everything is different.
i really need to increase my common sense in order to do better for phy n econs..since tr say its mostly abt common sense..need to strive.really. i need to be promoted to jc2. if not...i might...erms

ytd i did nothing except online n do maths..n study production notes til fall aslp. played gunbound.

today had a scary morning. everyone was nervous for maths. its really scary..1st time im worried for maths. anyway think i screwed up. following up was a day of boring lessons. during one break i 'flew' pass other ppl in the class as baozi said..i deng them...so they were staring at me when i walk pass again..n i nv deng them lor...am i really tt fierce?? sobs...
after sch took bus wif isaac. sally was like 'ok lor..got him dun need me liao' diaoZ. ok la nice trip anw cos long time nv take bus together liao. just had a econs lesson from him too. online wor. haha. haven really start revising but the concepts of elasticity is clearer liao.haha.

yeah jia you 4 tml!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i got dance tml lor! tao yan...

yeah! today is a happy day!
morning woke up at 1030 when im supposed to meet sy at 11 at bishan! omg im super late. so i took cab since almost every meeting wif her im oso late. haha. ate my bread on the cab. tot need around 15 bucks to reach there but onli spent $11.10. im onli a little late.whew.
ate creamy chicken at pastamania.it was really difficult to swallow..abit disgusting when u eat too much. i passed her her flute n cds. it looks like we r selling pirated cds. lol. after tt went to watch initial D. hehe. cos she got free tix ma. tt day i told her i watch liao den she angry cos she say i agreed to go watch wif her. haha but so good lor...its such a nice movie!! i love jay!!! he is still so cute lor. i wont even mind watching another time.haha. din spent any $$ for both times heex.
after tt we went to take neos. the machine we wanted at first was down when we went in. so disappointed. but...we saw e switch at some corner...which no one saw i think..den we turned it on can use le. we r jus so clever. crescentians rox. it was so damn nice la the neos.haha. i love u darlingZ!
den rushed back for piano lessons..was late for 10 mins :P hmm shld i create a tagboard too??shall consider.

hmm few days din blog le. cos com crash.

wed.
sch was short but went for piano n went back for badminton interhouse wif yvonne. we got very very beautiful results man! 0-15 for both match. ZERO of cos is us la. haha. we were laughing all the way...due to our nice results n supporters. we inexperienced ma. no choice. anw the whole thing is just very fun n funny. yvonne very cool sprain her leg still can run n jump. after tt we went to celebrate for our 'victory'. lol. the 5 of us again. craps again. went home watched juedui superstar. the M3 is damn cute lor...hehe lucky he's not out yet. he is so cute!

thu.
it was a very very long day. we teached yvonne how to diao ppl n be fierce..but she just cant make it. her expressions super funny la. every words she say will be wif a smiling face...no matter sad or happy or angry. so cute! forgot wat exactly happened but i was very happy when i received one msg during phy tut. i was thinking if shld msg tt person tt day den when i took out my hp wanted to sms, i saw tt msg! altho is was super short, but i dun think anyother ppl will send u tt out of a sudden ba. den i was smiling for the whole lesson. lucky no one realised.haha.tt msg makes my day man! pc was tiring.

today ended at 130. went to print notes wif xl n helen. den gotta carry things to dance studio wif mavis. nana was our onli entertainment during the farewell man..she n yihao. her name is hao sao. haha. the doremi is not tt irritaitng during dance..i think she changed quite alot leh. she n her dear oso quite sweet la. i shall be good today to wish them good luck. dance was fun..the teacher is just so funny la..got so many stupid tunes n movements. he rmbs my name n im from shenyang lor since i came back from china. no longer calls me xiao mei. catch up wif abit of movements le..still needs much practice.
just know today tt we r bikila. haha so tt day our pathetic badminton results is for rono. doesnt matter anymore.lol. s30 oso bikila. im not as excited as xl la but oso happy tt we r same as s30.haha. :D loving my life now...shall strive for all those tests nex week. i amazingly passed econs for this term so gave me motivation.

yesterday com got prob so nv blog.
hmm went to lib study wif baozi n luxin..did my chinese tut10 n 3 circular motion qn. not bad la haha...intended to go pool but its full le..den kbox was too ex. so decided to go back to lib study until 4. saw alvin n elaine! woo.. den we went to chevrons to bowl. it was full too so we wait lor...440 like tt started. my score was damn damn amazing tho. first game got 24! 2nd 29! WOW^^ they were laughing n laughing...duno y la ytd baozi's skill got great improvement..normally his score is no more den 50 de. haha. need rmb to pay them $$ wor :P
today sch was fun n we all were happy cos of some reason..hehe..econs n phy lec was disastrous..duno wat the trs r talking abt..really need to pay more attention to those 2 liao. my tutorial..nv even do ONE. actually planned to meet sy de but i too lazy to go out le..so later she might come bah i think...her precious flute ma.haha.

today slacked at home. onli did tut 10 till qn 5.
haiz. reformatted my com from 12++ till 3++. so long sei..but after formatting its slower.
actually quite fast de onli alot of virus. haiz.
nex time install xp.
mum ask me drink beer juz now..say wan see if my face turns red. in the end..really turned red leh. wah lao den dizzy...its sooooo bitter lor. duno why those ppl like it so much. now make me cant do work..later write rubbish inside haha.
tml cant slack le so decided to go library do work. no com mah can concentrate better.haha.
hmm today someone nv online..so weird. i miss euuuuu...

hai today quite bored ah..
woke up at 9. packed my things till duno when..so many rubbish in my room sia.
den practiced piano for a while..watched the drama my mum was watching. quite nice la.
went for my lesson..found out tt my sight reading deprove liao..so sad.
after tt went to bugis meet my mum n dad cos say we go there eat. when i reach there, they eat already! ask me eat myself..so angry lo. eat le den dun ask me go la... saw the zhoujielunhuazhuan again but mum dun allow me to buy..say waste $$ :(
so bored anyway..just reach home not long ago.
havin weird feelings nowadays..duno wat actually im thinking. i dun wan to haf such feelings..its distracting.

finally today is friday..3 days holiday ahead!! haha today sch was short but exciting wif all those tests. i was so unlucky this morning lo..wanted to take cab but waited 15 mins no cab..den took bus..late for sch..so dao mei. helen n zx nv come sch lo so clever ah. later afternoon come home did some xstitch den slp liao..nv realise my tenent is at home..nv close door lor. wah lao.
just had a very nice chat wif zx bao n luxin. gossiping abt our class..we know we're bad la but no choice we haf to do it. haha. after talking feel so shiok sia!! its a secret..plz dun ask wat we talked abt...
yeah so happy finally can rest!!