just scanned through some blogs. realised i missed alot of stuffs on my old frens. used to be quite close but now no contacts le. i agree im not good at keeping close contacts with frens. even when making frens, i always waits for ppl to approach me. why is it so? i duno. thats my mentality. i dont look approachable as well. if any stranger look at me i'll stare back. haha. maybe thats a very impt reason y i have so lil frens in contact. on one hand im afraid of loneliness, on the other hand im unwilling to take initiative to make more frens. contradicting har. jc life is ending. does it means that all the good frens i have now will become distant when we part? i hope not. hmm.
anw. today we celebrated von's bday! went to ice skate after sch as planned long long ago. it was superbly fun! and shaf is the fastest learner i've ever known. in less than 5 mins she can skate already! without help. and this is her second time trying after 10 years. she is perfect. intelligence+beauty. however shafiq sprained his ankle towards the end. its..scary. seeing his face, we know the pain. hope he will recover soon. after that we went to eat at IMM. secret recipe. its nice. somewat like swensens tho. then we walk walk walk at IMM. many lame crappy jokes emerged at daiso. good day in all =]

omg. chin kuan is super lame. i really duno how to continue the conversation with him.

take me for [A WALK TO REMEMBER] says:ur toe ok alreay?
give me up not. says:i left it in sch
take me for [A WALK TO REMEMBER] says:oic
take me for [A WALK TO REMEMBER] says:rmb to fix it back when its ok
give me up not. says:maybe eaten by ants or cockroach alr

well. this is it.
hmm this few days. many things are happening to the people around me. unhappy things. BUT tml will be a happy day. we are going ICE SKATING! after so long nv go. yay!

updates.
nth much last week. stayed back to study most of the days. had netball interhouse games on wed. first time play that ball. lol. ponned sch on thu. as planned. haha.
sat had parents meeting session. my dad talked alot la. i was quite irritated by him actually. hai. none the less! our car finally arrived. sitting on it was wonderful. but sometimes i do feel that my family shld not really afford a car with our limited income. feels like gao pan. like this morning going to sch by car is just so not me. i used to run to sch like tiger is chasing behind. and sat i could get the bag i wanted. quite a eventful day actually.
feeling the stress. this time is really really real stress. 100 days to A levels. just counted today. that means less play time. less online. more n more study. more practicing of piano. well im stressd!

happiness. my goal from now on. happiness everyday. no matter what happens i will look at the positive side. of course at the mean time i cant forget about my studies. prelim is really near. after september holidays. which is only 53 days left. 3 subjects. that means 17 days for one subject. wow. jia you everyone!! we can make it de. =]
putting same msn nicks and using the same fonts is also one of the little happiness in life. try it one day! its kind of retarded but still..fun!

just read msn message logs. not that im crazy to go and save all my convos. but msn saved it auto. ok i got save some when they exceed limit la. anw. it was still alright at the beginning of this year. reading about the past is just sweet and happy. i love. but what is passed is over. so it will be memories from now on.

OFF. my results. more than lousy. and ms toh wants to meet my parents. i really duno how to tell my mum my results. she will be so diasppointed. especially maths. i failed maths. i think this is the first major exam when i fail my maths.
shld i continue to teach tuition? the family dont seem very responsible and it seems that the difficulty level to get the kid in to sec sch is very high. even is i continue teaching can i make it? my own studies? my piano exam? can i really excel in all with the limited time left? life is stressful and difficult.

soccer betting. now that WC is over. no more betting le. in the whole thing i think i won a few bucks. last nite france lost!! so i lost my 5$ and a movie treat. but i still got my fish&co treat. =]
this morning is memorable. i shared umbrella with the one i will always like to share umbrella with. this small incident just makes my day. thanks for the rain, the bus, and the timing. i shall rmb-10th july 2006. =]

sometimes its really difficult to know what is real and what is not. sometimes it might be a lie that is good for u. but i dont think anyone will like that. most of the times even very clase friends will become distant when the surrounding environment change. when someone new comes along. and thats basically nothing much we can do to go back to the past. u can just bare with the new situation and try to adapt to it. although its really difficult. the gradual change of someone initially very close to u may cause u to go into a kind of depression. not very serious but very hurtful. i feel it. deep in my heart.
anyway. other than the above. updates abt these few days are. i failed ALL subjects except gp for mid year. which is the reverse situation. i normally fail gp. yes i know i should start studying now. cannot delay anymore. but my heart is not on that. no motivation at all.

us at palawan beach!!!
this is the present my dear made for me. a japanese princess! =]
our picnic foods!
the pretty cake =]
the adorable photo frame.!!


today is the planned outing for my bday! thank you girls. those presents are really sweet n pretty=]

the first one is my cake! so pretty hor? tho i dont like to eat cakes. hehe. the second is apple photo frames with our pics inside! yay. =] plus a body mist from body shop.
okay. so this is the day. we meet at harbourfront as planned. and we were at palawan beach! we found a suitable spot and settled down our things. and started the picnic! so cooling with sea breeze and delicious foods! we also played volleyball..which i think is too difficult for us. haha. then took many pics too. and then me n helen was being buried! like mummies. hehe. the trip was fun but we din really have much things to do. so left the place quite early. wenta suntec for MARCHE. cool place. nice foods. took neos at bugis too. that abt the day. short description.